Living with PCOS

I live with PCOS, it sucks.  I have come to find more and more women that suffer the same way that I do every month and who live with some of the effects of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.  I would love to say it sounds worse than it is, but it really is a shitty thing to live with. 

For the longest time I would be mortified of the little hair that grew from my chin, or the fact that I couldn’t lose weight no matter how hard I tried, or the periods so heavy I would be afraid to move because I was afraid to make a mess, having my hormones yoyo so bad during my period that you wouldn’t know what to expect from me….then there is the severe exhaustion and excruciating cramps.  

This might be the only thing that has ever made me curse being a woman. 

I think alot of women are silent about it because it has so many embarrassing symptoms…but I think I am at a point in my life where I have to own and embrace all of the good with the bad.

It is just who I am. 

…and just like everything else in my life I won’t let it stop me…

Let’s read about this gorgeous woman’s experience below.

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“I’ve never felt comfortable in my own skin. I’ve never felt that I was pretty or beautiful. I always tried to wear clothes that wouldn’t show my body. I would look for anything to cover myself up with. I’ve always been a plus size girl who didn’t like what she saw in the mirror. 

I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2015. After struggling with my weight and body issues, the symptoms of this disorder brought many more. It seemed like I could never love myself. On top of my weight, now I had to worry about facial hair, acne, and anything else that would come up because of this disorder. I wanted to shut myself away forever. 

Then, in early 2016 I got engaged to my high school sweetheart. I had started eating better and doing some work outs. I tried coming out of my shell, even though I didn’t want to. The minute I got engaged, I knew I wanted to do a boudoir photo shoot for fiance as a wedding gift. He has always made sure I was comfortable. He always reminded me that I’m beautiful, that he loved me for me, flaws and all. 

Lindsay Rae Photography kept popping up on my Facebook page. And I would go through her website and look at all of the beautiful women on her blogs. I loved her work, and what she did. But I never thought I could do it. There was no way that I could be that gorgeous! But I convinced myself to reach out, and once I reached out, I agreed to do a shoot. 

I cannot even begin to describe how nervous I was to do this. I’ve never worn lingerie in my life! I almost cancelled multiple times because I just couldn’t accept myself. But I kept my appointment, and I am so glad that I did. My heart was pounding in my chest as I walked up to the loft. The second I entered that room and met Lindsay and Erin, every fear that I had melted away. It was like I had known them forever. Suddenly I wasn’t afraid to show so much of myself to another person. I was comfortable just being me.

The photos we took that day have literally changed the entire perspective that I have of myself. I’m a beautiful, sexy, curvy woman. I’m so much more than my body. Who would have thought that a single photo shoot, and two amazing people could change someone’s life so much?” ~A